Psychos'R'Us

[transient_orange]

I am way, way, way off.

I'm moody again. I pick fights without meaning to. I cry at the drop of a hat. My tolerance level is at an all time low. I hate having chemical imbalances/hormone problems.

Yes, you can worry. I'm worried. I feel like a nutcase - and I know part of it's to do with my thyroid and the damn chemical deficiencies in my own god forsaken head.

When this happens, the past comes and hits me up beside the head. I'm still figuring out what emotional scars I have and what they do to me. Sometimes I feel like I'm completely and utterly fucked.

So, without the help of modern medicine, I would probably be committed and doped up to epic proportions. Even doctor's are stupid and don't look for the right things - it's always the goddamned easy way out. So if you know a witch doctor - send me their way. If you know some aliens, perhaps they can probe me and tell me more. If you care, just send your love, because I'm feeling really, really insecure and sensitive right now.

I'll make it. I'll fix things, but right now rock bottom seems damned close and I've got my spork to try to dig further.

Comments

[sirfox.livejournal.com]

seriously, though. I know it's hard, hon, but we're here for you. The medications are doing their thing, and it's just going to be bumpy for a while until they level everything out. We know not to take things personally as your horomones play kickball with your emotions. We'll get through this.

[scavengerchild.livejournal.com]

I worry so much about the one's I love. I know that you guys care and that you'll see me through it, but damn it, I don't want that emotional ball hitting you in the head. I feel like I'm broken, but I know it can be fixed. I'm really worried about how I'm going to be emotionally this weekend. All I can ask is patience and understanding and I'll do all I can to stay as stable as possible. I'm probably not going to be very huggy, and damn it all, I split my lip with my tooth - what can I say, I'm an idiot sometimes, but I want to be there. I want to spend time with you and see Fangs again. I'll make this work damn it.